I Feel Like Shit...

I had almost forgot that I had a Blog but then I was depressed and then it rang true coz this is where i come when im depressed which is almost 90% of the time. Oh well, right now i feel like shit which surprisingly happens quite a lot....believe it or not I have suicide lingering on my mind everyt time im depressed and more shit happens....right now thats my case. Im thinking and thinking. Maybe Ill just do it! Anyways, I feel like a prisoner that has to fill out a vacation form or leave form or watever the hell u call em everytime she wants to leave the house and that sux!! i swear I mean even if i was a prime suspect in a crime scene this wudnt be my case as everytime i want to step a foot out of the house, i have to give them all sorts of details like name, age, sex, colour, race, contact details and well halfway through I withdraw my request and sit at home and cry and feel miserable for myself!!
I hate him, i think that is going to be my motto for the rest of my life till I die or either he does!
I hate him for all the shit in my life and depriving me of a life and locking me up for the crime of living- in the literal sense of breathing and walking!
Just Had another fight with nana, as she has got zero tolerance over things thats she has not control over and ma dad is one of em but i had to talk to someone!

Im just depressed right now, very depressed....almost suicidal!!

I hate the people in the Dorms, I see them everyday when I have to go my shitty house to my family while they are all dressed up waiting to be picked up for a night of fun!!

Iam just so frustrated...coz i dunt have a guy and to think if i had a guy wats the point? I wouldnt be able to go out with him.....yup I DEFINATELY hate him and his guts. I hate him to the core...nana is no different mind you but at least you can get around here.

Anyways, me off to die
Thanks,

Nina