WHY????

Wel well well.....imagine ma disspointment!! god i hate myself and i hate y these shit things happen to me! imagine i finally get my eye fixated on a guy and hes NOT single!! i mean wat the hell!
after one year i finally make a selection that is just OK and now hes not single....arrrrgh! gosh! im so frustrated right now. shit shit shit. maybe im destined to be stuck with the bum guys for the rest of my life and stay single! yes ma standards are pretty high but hey i finally like somone and hes taken!!!
WHY??
i mean why do i have to pick- out of all the guys i noe- the one that is not available! sigh! well gotta keep moving on and living my sad and miserable and sad and pathetic life that i lead right now!
i just hate it! man! i can imagine wat guys feel like when they noe a gurl is not single!
i guess i just want wat i cant have and the minute i have him i dunt want him anymore!
or maybe not maybe i just want him
i dunno wat im saying
aaarggggggh!

laters ppl

Nina