Just to Know...

you noe its more of proving to urself above anything that you can have anyone at anytime and you probably could if you pulled the right strings but the question is how far u willing to go to prove sumthing like that to urself? as far as to break a happy relationship? break a lot of hearts? and just walk away with nuthing but the feel of self satisfaction?
i dunno...yes and no- i did it once, and i noe i cud do it again if i played ma cards rite but i really dunt want to end up with sumone like that stuck to ma ass!
and no, coz i did wat i did and this is wat i ended u p with! apparently i was just a mersmerising object till i remained hidden and mysterious and once they were exploited it was BAM!
on this one, i played ma cards they way i wanted to but wat i failed to realise in all my selfishness is wat the other party wanted- but all i say was me in that one scene locked in my head, the one i cant erase and the one i longed to be in place of...the one person that i hated coz of her position at the time! and i cant believe how well things were and how perfect the chemistry and understanding was and then it all just died one day!
dat was it!
and then i learnt the sad lessons life teaches us...
that ppl come and ppl go and in all my naivete i thought this one would last a lot longer than the rest but it wasnt so
that when its ppl's time to go u just have to let go coz the more u try to bridge the gap the more u cause the gap to widen rather than to tighten,
and the whole package...
oh well....now, i dont wanna prove anythign coz theres nuthign to prove anymore- more like been there done dat, i noe wat it feels like so no need no more
let them be happy with wat lil they have and well too bad, ur loss, was too good i guess for u eh?
no worries...
There will be others and more others and tons more so theres no rush...

Tc

Nina