Funny...there are some things that have become so important...lately the idea of sex has been lingering on my mind very frequently. im reading this book that is some sort of autobiography of this female that is a sex-pert! and the things doot revealed to me make me wonder...
I mean somtimes i not sure if im a virgin...and i have to think twice! i mean i think its all about being in your heard! virginity is just a state of mind and all depends on what you make of it...and nothing physically can change that state of mind....
right now, i was surprised at the power the pussy has over the male mind....they wud go to great extents for it and surprisingly it dusnt seem like a big thing. the male creature is a very easy animal to tame if you know the game. working at the megastore taught me a lot of things from a lot of different things and one of them was wat marco told me once," women provoke men without even knowing it and when the men actually do sumthin they make a scene and name it sexual harrasement or perversion or lewdity!" and he was soo right! Now i can understand the complete nature of what he was saying...maybe not completely but thru a series of close observations i can say that to twirl a man around one's lil finger is not very difficult- the male mind is not very complex, with the exception of a few trapdoors and tricks here and there, its is a relatively easy dough that can be formed into anythin one pleases.
just now, one fone call....just one fone call was enuf to make bobby abandon his meal and get dressed and drive a gud distance for god noes wat!that gurl noes how to play her cards right...in fact if she plays her cards exceptionally well she cud even get married! i mean theses gurls ultimate goal is 2 get married.....if they cud just c beyond that....if we cud just keep out emotions at bay and not let that get in the way....men cud be tools or rather steps to places one can only dream of....
Women underestimate themselves, of what they are capable- destruction or birth....its all in their hands and they have the power over it all. i noe this all sounds very feminist and maybe it is but maybe its about time to recognize some things, maybe im saying these things just coz im a female myself, maybe its coz the power has been to sleep by the male dominated society for the past 3 or 4 millenia.
On the other hand trying to figure out my nana is a different story- shes of my sex but i just cant get to her complex brain or rather i dunt want to understand what goes on in her head. all the things that she has been through is enuf to transform any sane human into a maniac-not that she is, its just that we cant seem to agree on certain things....all im asking for is to be allowed to live a little....i wanna shape ma eyebrows as thinly as possible, i wanna stay out till all hours, i wanna do the things i wanna do....
no doubt i love her a lot more than joe, shes still got a lil bit of spirit left in her and i will want to make the maximum use of wats left in her before she loses it all....
right now, i think i have raved enough nonesence....
Nina.
